I have no idea what my dream job is

While I am on a social media break, I am excited to have Jamie Kocur guest post. Jamie is a recovering worship leader. She writes songs and blogs honestly here. She is such a sweet person, and I have loved getting to know her better. You can follow her on Twitter here.

I’ve always been a passionate person. But, as happens to so many, I got sucked into the monotony of life and began to simply go through the motions. I didn’t like it, but had no idea how to rise above it.

I heard about the book Quitter by Jon Acuff, and bought it immediately. It perfectly described where I was in life. I was elated when I heard there was going to be a conference based on the book and bought a ticket the first day they went on sale.

I attended that first Quitter Conference in Nashville a little over a year ago. The conference provided me with tools I needed to get moving toward dreams of music and writing, and hopefully a dream job involving both those passions.

I began writing songs and blogging, but wondered where I was going with all of it. There was no end goal in sight.

Since I loved the Quitter conference experience so much, I ended up attending two more. After three conferences, I still have no end goal in sight. I don’t know what my dream job looks like. Honestly, I have no idea who would pay me to do the things I love doing. I have some fuzzy notions of an end goal, but no idea what to do with them yet.

At the third conference, Jon Acuff said something that resonated with me.

“Your dream will not be perfect. It will be messy. It will change and evolve. It won’t be one thing.”

The important part of this whole dream journey is to show up everyday and practice, to make the effort and put myself out there. It’s not my job to figure it all out now. The pieces aren’t going to magically and neatly fall into place. This whole messy journey will begin to make sense after I put in months or even years of hard work.

This dreaming thing is not about the end goal or perfect day job. It’s about the journey of getting there, of finding purpose and passion in my life again. When I get up early to write, it gives me momentum through the rest of the day. When I write a song and the melody is stuck in my head throughout the workday, it brings me joy.

I have absolutely no idea what my dream job looks like. And I’m learning to be okay with that. I know what I love to do and I’m doing it. The pieces will fall into place along the way.