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I learned the “Our Father” prayer as a child. I had to memorize it for my catechism classes.
Our Father, Who Art in Heaven, Hallowed be thy name…
You know the rest.
Although I never really thought about the words as I prayed. I would always get stuck on the Our Father part.
I remember attending a meeting and someone praying. They gushed as they said, ‘Papa God’. I remember cringing. I never quite heard anyone refer to God the Father as their Papa.
I left the meeting feeling uncomfortable.
I never once cringed at the word Jesus. I love Jesus. I mean, how can you not love Jesus?
He doesn’t come across as distant or intimidating.
So I began to reflect on my past for answers. I started thinking about my childhood, specifically my relationship with my father.
I love my dad and understand him more today than I ever did.
However, if I’m going to keep it real, he wasn’t around very much. And when he was around, he wasn’t particularly warm and fuzzy.
On the contrary, he was moody, intimidating and distant.
Suddenly, it clicked. I realized I was comparing my Heavenly father to my earthly father. As if they were one and the same.
So, if I wasn’t close to my own father, what made me think I’m going to be close to my heavenly father?
I mean, imagine trying to be close to someone you’re intimidated by? Is it possible to be intimate or get to know someone if you are afraid of them?
The answer is obvious.
So how did I resolve this dilemma? I’m still working on it.
I decided I would commit to reading the bible every day. This way I could change my thinking and get to know Him better.
I’ve also been praying for healing in this area as well.
It’s a process, but I’m grateful to be further along than I was.
What about you? Do you struggle with your perception of God as Father?